Appreciative Post

Thank you God for giving me one more year to live and to cherish every moment I have. I will study hard & pray hard. I wanna be rich and help people and animals. I will open a clinic or an animal shelter of my own one day. I will have a happy family of my own one day. I know I can be hard to handle so I hope that you can give me a very good and patient husband in future :P I will not easily give up to live my life. I am blessed. I will always be grateful. I will try my best to be a good person. I will try to see more goods in people. I will try to forgive more and hate less. I will try to appreciate everything I have now rather than thinking of what other people have. I love being a doctor or a teacher, and I really appreciate that I'm in the path to become one right now. Last but not least, I will struggle really hard to focus on my study so that I'll become a really great vet.

Handling Stress

Hello,

What do you do when you're feeling blue? What do you do when you feel frustrated? Yes you can eat an ice-cream, you can eat a piece of chocolate cake, but then, why harm your body? Why don't you do something healthy instead? I'm not saying that I don't do something stupid like eating too much I ended up regretting it, but I've discovered many better ways to deal with a heartbreak:

1. It's okay to cry. Just cry your eyeballs out. It'll make you feel better afterward.

2. I sweat myself. I always go running or doing yoga. I think this is by far the best way bc not only it's healthy, you also can get an extra package of hot body :P when running, you should only focus on breathing or you could try crying while running. Good luck.

3. Don't be alone. It doesn't help at all. Maybe you could be alone for a while to cry or to put yourself back together, but after that, find a good friend. Even if you don't want to tell anything to her, just talk about something and laugh a lot. I have a lot of good friends here and they never disappoint me in making me laugh. Just don't be alone bc it is not good for your despair.

4. Play with your pet or any animals. Did you ever feel that they kinda get you when you're upset?

5. Do something that you've never tried before or try joining any club. Make yourself busy or if you're already busy then that's good. Because when you're busy, you'll get tired. When you're tired, you don't have to think about something before going to bed.

6. Block that particular person from any possible social networking that you have, Twitter, instagram, Facebook, and so on. Avoid meeting that person, avoid going to the places you know he'll be there. Not that you're being rude or anything, it just means that you're building a better you and you require a lot of time and space and also strength. How can you move on when you're still holding on to that person?

7. Be positive. Tbh, I am a very negative person but I'm really trying hard to change. The thought of creating this blog came right after I faced something unbearable in my life. Whenever I thought about doing something negative like stalking (yes stalking is actually really bad), cursing, or talking bad, I immediately started a draft about something that I think useful for anyone and something that I thought worth sharing. Yes it is hard but try harder. Just be positive. If someone was meant for you, he'll always be for you. It has been decided.

8. Try to forgive. Yes, easier said than done. But then you can only feel the beauty of it once you understand how a simple act of forgiving can give a really significant effect in your life. Yes it does. And sometimes you just realize you love a person so much you can never get mad at him forever, and you're able to let him go simply bc he's happy for what he has in his life now.

9. Never underestimate somebody just to put yourself above them. If you do this, you're actually downgrading yourself. I admit I did this sometimes, but then I realized that God can take whatever good I have now just in the blink of an eye. Just be grateful for what you have now & don't ever compare yourself with others.

10. Last but not least, pray to God in whatever circumstances you're in.

I'm hoping to learn more positive things from others as well. Till then. Good night! :D

New Member of the Family

One fine day, my little sister opened the back door of my mom's boutique. Suddenly, she heard a meow sound and it turned out a little cute kitten appeared out of nowhere. You know that feeling when your heart softens to the sound of a cat begging for love, you just can't resist the temptation to cuddle that poor little thing. So, my sister simply took him inside and we adopt him now yeay! Can't wait to go back home to see the newcomer :D and our spoiled Onyok must be in a great deal of jealousy right now :P

Enzymes

Good morning,

So I know that most of you must be familiar with the word enzyme. Today in biochemistry class, the lecturer related the enzyme mechanisms with an interesting topic, love (or so-called). Basically, an enzyme is a catalyst and it speeds up the rate of reaction.

In high school, we've been taught that the enzyme is highly specific. It does not change shape. It only binds to its specific active site. The teachers were so insistent when I doubted it because you know it's a protein, and I thought a lot of chemicals have been made to alter any other chemicals. Turns out that today we learned about another mechanism which is called 'induced-fit model'. Apparently, the enzyme can slightly alter its active site to fit the substrate so that they can bind. So, the enzyme is not really that specific. But that's not what I really wanna discuss. All of you must have heard about lock-and-key model.

Now, there are two types of model; lock-and-key model & induced-fit model. The obvious difference between these two are its enzyme has specific active site whereas for the other one, the enzyme has the ability to suit itself to occupy the need of the substrate so that it can bind. For easier understanding, the relation for the lock-and-key model is that the boy would only accept the girl that is really specified to his taste. If he wants skinny girl, skinny it is. If he only adores blondie, blondie it is. If he likes bald girl, well, even one strand on her head won't do. He needs all criteria to be fulfilled, not even a single defect. Contrary to the other model, he is a little tolerable. If he wants a pretty girl, he would still accept an ordinary girl. He still has a criteria to be picked, but then he accepts the girl just the way she is.

The question is, which model are you?

A Little Introduction

Greetings :)

My name is Bella and I'll be sharing as much experiences as I can on my journey of becoming a vet doctor. In short, it is not easy. Before all that, I just want to share a little info about me.

Well, I was borned in Johor. Ever since I was little, I've always wanted to be a doctor or teacher. I've applied though to further my study in both medic & the maktab perguruan. I didn't even get the medic interview but then I've got the call for an interview as a biology teacher. I went there but then I didn't get in & I was so sad. I mean, what did it actually take to be a teacher? I was passionate, I got an A for biology subject, and all the other interviewees weren't actually too excited to be a teacher. And I was thinking that either I'm not up to their standard to be a teacher or that I just don't fit into that profession. But then I just prayed to God for the best & let him decide the rest. Then I checked on the upu website & that was where the journey began. I got matriculation as well but then I was afraid that I might not be able to catch up on studies with the packed syllabus packed time and packed everything, so, my journey as a university student started when I enrolled into the Diploma of Animal Health and Production. I cried & I hated it so much because first, I have to go to Sarawak which is miles away from home. Second, my diploma takes 3 & a half years (glad that they changed it back to 3 years after all). Third, not one of my high school teachers encouraged us to study for diploma bc they said it is a waste of time. Forth, I accepted the offer simply because I didn't have any other choices (luckily I am an animal lover). Fifth, I'm being honest here, I thought that Sarawak is an under-developed state which later I'll tell you about how I fell in love with this place and its culture.

So, anybody who thinks that diploma is super easy is super wrong. First of all, in my uni, to be in dean list, you have to get at least 3.75 pointers. Forth sem was hell to me. We have loads of reports that had to be done every night, we need to rear chickens like literally reared them chickens from day one until they reached the weight that can be marketed, we need to observe the growth of the chicken and quail eggs from day one until they hatched, & many more that I'll be sharing on my next posts. The first sem was kinda tough too. I've never used a hoe before let alone doing batas and planting any crops. Planting was never my thing. Not that I'm spoiled or something but planting requires a lot of hard works. You need to water them, weed them, fertilize them, talk to them (this is serious though so that that'll grow faster & better), and before planting you also need to identify the suitable ground pH for a certain plant to be grown, and if the pH is not suitable you have to modify the medium. Not that being involved in veterinary sector is easy, but I love animals, all of them. So if you put passion together with hardwork, anything is possible.

I am just hoping that my blog will be one of your sources of positivity. I mean, good knowledge or experience ought to be shared. And one day, I might forget everything I did that allows me to stand on my position I'm standing right now, or in the future I might not be able to tell all the things I did when my grandchildren ask me, or maybe I'd just like to reminisce to appreciate what I had, so this blog will be one of my precious things to keep. And I'd also like to hear some opinions or experiences from others! Till then!