Motivation for Myself

So hello, just got back from driving class. At last my teacher turned up anyway hehe. All in all, it was okay I think and I don't really wanna update about my driving skill so yea. Okay.

I am alone right now. I hate being alone. I used to like being alone. Back then when I was in diploma, whenever I had free times, I'd rather stay in my room, watching good movies or reading good books, or sleeping, or better, studying (haha), when all of my friends were having fun out there, socializing and meeting some new friends, as long as they're doing things that didn't involve staying in enclosure. Even if I'm not alone, I used to stay with H, watching movie, eating together. Anyway, I think my feeling has something to do with the frequencies. If I'm alone too much, I get bored. Same goes to when I'm spending too much time with people, I'll be needing times for myself. I guess people are all like that. Ungrateful. God gave you something and you don't appreciate it. But when God take it all back, you're asking for it. I think it happens to me all the time. Sometimes I just have to keep reminding myself to bear with God all the time, even at your happiest moment. So I'm simply taking some space here to thank God for giving me all that I ever had and needed. Sometimes I needed it too bad but God didn't give me and I forgot that He will give something much better. I can still remember that recently, I was feeling down and something terrible was bothering me so much. I felt useless, I was thinking I am such a loser the whole time, I was thinking why is this happening to me, am I so bad like killing-people bad that I deserved things like this? Just when I thought about giving up and in the brink of losing hope, God gave me something beautiful; friends that cannot be replaced and a bunch of people who actually believe in me. I gave them 'I love you' message and they (well, most of them) simply replied 'Love you too' or 'Love you back' or 'Love you more', things like that. I know it seems nothing but I know they all meant what they said. And I meant what I said. And when I went to see my PA (my academic advisor), she told me something I could never forget. Mainly, things she said just lifted up my spirit and lightened up my already dull day. I was smiling the whole day, not because what she asked me to do, simply because she believes in me, and she thinks I'm capable of something which my own self never ever even once thought about that, and simply because she made the thing seems so easy to be achieved. I love that kind of teacher. A kind of teacher who makes everything in this world seems possible, and you can always trust that teacher. I won't be telling here about what she said to me but then, if it really comes true, I promise there'll be a post about this :) Maybe you can get upset, cry once in a while, but then, don't forget to look for happiness afterward. Till then

"Sometimes when I'm upset about my life, I'll just think about my future. In 10 years time, none of these things will matter anymore, you'll probably laugh about this and you'll be thinking, 'what the hell I am thinking at that particular time, young me'. Just live your life and remember, first thing first. Study hard, always think about the future, or you'll regret later."