Big C

I'm sure that you must have, at least once, had one crush in your life. Well, I have some, a lot in fact (hehee). For me, having a crush means that you like someone, maybe you love to see his face, the way he walks, the way he stays so low, and the way he smiles 😊 and the most important thing is you know your limit and the chances of you two getting to know each other are beyond impossible (I mean directly, in person). I actually have this major crush on one guy here in my campus. But what happened if he talked to you, like actually talked to you, like he's the one who actually started the conversation first? Imagine you like somebody, you've been eyeing that somebody for months, you know his name, you know his father's name, you know all of his close friends, etc etc. And then he talked to you like literally TALKED to you! And what did I do? I fckin freaked out. I just sat there motionless and looked at another direction trying to recompose myself. And by the time I regained my consciousness, he already left bearing the wrong message in his head. Good job. He's a really really shy guy and you've had the only chance of getting him to talk to you and you completely blew it off. And good luck in finding a way to get him to talk to you again, now he won't even look at me whenever we bumped into each other T-T I really don't know what to do. Maybe it's better this way. Maybe he doesn't even like me. Maybe the conversation he first started was just a friendly gesture that's all. But why didn't he talk to another girl? Maybe he really did like me. Maybe he had crush on me like I had on him. Who am I kidding. There's no way he had a crush on me. Maybe he was just trying to be polite. Well, these maybes are killing me..