Lamb

Lamb shoulder, thinly sliced, cooked with black pepper and other ingredients that made this tasted so yummy, some baby tomatoes and a little salt, and lastly, a drizzle of lemon juice. I shouldn't have but.. I was in seventh heaven!

Don't be Judgemental

Good morning,

Just now, I saw a person shared his story about nobody wanted to help him regarding his flat tire. He waited at the side of the road and then a person came to the rescue whom a person you always called 'Bangla' and the one whom Malaysians always made fun of. So, I want to tell my story.

I've been facing a similar problem before. My front tire was flat and a lot of Malays passed by, some just ignored me, and some just well, stopped for a while to ask what happen and then just drove off. And then just when I almost reached my house (I walked while pushing my bike, my phone battery was flat too), an Indonesian offered his help. Yes the indon people whom you always made fun of. I gotta admit I was scared of him at first and I was being a little judgemental bc I took a shortcut and the road was a little quiet and at that time people rarely passed by so I felt uneasy with him by my side and I was thinking abt what people always told me about Indonesian which is all bad. I told him it's okay with hope he would just go away but then he insisted and he told me that it's dangerous for a girl to walk alone in this area. He kept asking to help me with my bike an I said it's okay bc I'm almost home. Then he just accompanied me to the end of the road and I said many thanks and waved him goodbye. I almost cried bc nobody my race stopped to help me instead a person that my own race always hate was the one who came up with the help. After the incident I'm no longer being prejudice about them, because if you're saying they're bad, some Malaysians are also bad. So the thing is, it doesn't matter if you're pendatang or Malaysian. What matters most is that you have a good heart. Just stop being judgemental.

Food

I love sandwiches especially those with a lot of eggs, sauce, mayo, pickles, tomatoes, cucumber, and salad. They're so easy to prepare and delicious too. In fact you can make it healthy (if you want hehe). You can either boil or fry your eggs. I used olive oil instead of normal cooking oil to fry the eggs. It is healthier and you can tell the difference between those two oil. If I use normal palm oil, you can feel like something stuck in your throat after eating oily food. And you can add up anything as you like. You can put a little seasoning, salt, or black pepper, or if you like you can even put kaya, it's completely up to you! I've just had my sandwich and it was divine :D

Motivation for Myself

So hello, just got back from driving class. At last my teacher turned up anyway hehe. All in all, it was okay I think and I don't really wanna update about my driving skill so yea. Okay.

I am alone right now. I hate being alone. I used to like being alone. Back then when I was in diploma, whenever I had free times, I'd rather stay in my room, watching good movies or reading good books, or sleeping, or better, studying (haha), when all of my friends were having fun out there, socializing and meeting some new friends, as long as they're doing things that didn't involve staying in enclosure. Even if I'm not alone, I used to stay with H, watching movie, eating together. Anyway, I think my feeling has something to do with the frequencies. If I'm alone too much, I get bored. Same goes to when I'm spending too much time with people, I'll be needing times for myself. I guess people are all like that. Ungrateful. God gave you something and you don't appreciate it. But when God take it all back, you're asking for it. I think it happens to me all the time. Sometimes I just have to keep reminding myself to bear with God all the time, even at your happiest moment. So I'm simply taking some space here to thank God for giving me all that I ever had and needed. Sometimes I needed it too bad but God didn't give me and I forgot that He will give something much better. I can still remember that recently, I was feeling down and something terrible was bothering me so much. I felt useless, I was thinking I am such a loser the whole time, I was thinking why is this happening to me, am I so bad like killing-people bad that I deserved things like this? Just when I thought about giving up and in the brink of losing hope, God gave me something beautiful; friends that cannot be replaced and a bunch of people who actually believe in me. I gave them 'I love you' message and they (well, most of them) simply replied 'Love you too' or 'Love you back' or 'Love you more', things like that. I know it seems nothing but I know they all meant what they said. And I meant what I said. And when I went to see my PA (my academic advisor), she told me something I could never forget. Mainly, things she said just lifted up my spirit and lightened up my already dull day. I was smiling the whole day, not because what she asked me to do, simply because she believes in me, and she thinks I'm capable of something which my own self never ever even once thought about that, and simply because she made the thing seems so easy to be achieved. I love that kind of teacher. A kind of teacher who makes everything in this world seems possible, and you can always trust that teacher. I won't be telling here about what she said to me but then, if it really comes true, I promise there'll be a post about this :) Maybe you can get upset, cry once in a while, but then, don't forget to look for happiness afterward. Till then

"Sometimes when I'm upset about my life, I'll just think about my future. In 10 years time, none of these things will matter anymore, you'll probably laugh about this and you'll be thinking, 'what the hell I am thinking at that particular time, young me'. Just live your life and remember, first thing first. Study hard, always think about the future, or you'll regret later."

Bored

Where is my driving teacher?

I was supposed to have my driving lesson by now and the pakcik lesen should've already picked me at 8 but where is he? I tried calling the office but nobody picked up. Hm

Vacation

I know sometimes life sucks and you feel like you have nothing to hold on to. Like nobody loves you or even cares about you. I feel it sometimes. In fact, most of the times. I think I'm just depressed so I am in dire need of a vacation! Maybe I can't, for now, but here are some places that I've gone to. I really miss having holidays! ):

I was snorkeling in Pulau Tioman but sadly no pictures of me bc I didn't own a waterproof camera ):

A cat I found in Pulau Tioman (:

Since there were no decent pictures of us in Desaru, I'll just take a google image photo :P So this is the view from our room in Damai Beach Resort. I miss them, Zry, Wawa, & Mai )':

These are pictures from Berkelah Waterfall in Pahang. I'd die to go there once again! Btw it's a 3-hour walk just to get up there, the highest level of the waterfall. But the view, it was worth the sweat.

This wasn't exactly a holiday, but I really enjoyed my time in Kelantan it felt like a holiday. Good food, good people, good environment (:

My cousin cum my bestfriend who will always be there for me. He's gonna get married real soon and will leave me alone )':

This isn't vacation but it was some kind of a getaway from stress. I really miss basketball session with them

Jalan - jalan KL (:

Tanjung Batu. Classic. I miss those times..

Wow! Just looking at all the photos has made me feel a lil better.

I love islands. I wanna go far far away. I really need to go out. Wind please take me..

Vet Orientation

Greetings,

I've been busy but here's an update. Few weeks after we enrolled, an orientation day had been organized by the second year students. All in all, I just wanna say that it was really great and superb. Congrats! :D

So, the theme for our vet orientation was 'Hunger Games'. Our names were picked randomly into any group and I was in District 5. To my surprise, we got along really well & my teammates were awesome and I believe we had such a splendid day even though we didn't win the first place. Nevertheless, winning isn't everything!

Tbh I love all the games planned but then I really really hate the part where we had to drink some kind of a healthy smoothie. What do I mean by healthy? All natural yet gross ingredients were being blended together; onion, garlic, bell pepper, ginger, and God-knows-what. There was another drink that it really looked and tasted like vomit I had to finish it all in one shot (I think it was a mixture of oat and curry maggi etc. etc.). Then there was another drink which smelt like nescafe but tasted really damn sour that I couldn't handle it. I am usually a sucker when it comes to sour things. After drinking all that, I got wind & feeling nauseous all day long that I had to eat a lot of candies just to get rid of the putrid smell and revolting taste in my throat. The wind kept coming up tho! However, it was fun, no kidding! Basically some other activities that we did were answering questions, completing puzzles, short trip at the hospital area, handling weird animals or creatures, and we were able to know our faculty better. And despite of lacking two members in our district, we still managed to get 5th place out of 12 districts & I think that was pretty impressive if you ask me. We were not able to take photos during the orientation but here's a post-orientation group photo:

District 5: Zher Min, Joanne, Me, Anna, Simone, Sakinah, Fathiya, & Yasirah (:

Tired

Hello earthlings,

This week was hectic as hell. I want to press the snooze button and live in the dreamland forever ~

Marathon

Hello,

So on the last few weeks, a marathon run was held in my campus. As usual, it is compulsory for first year students to join, everything always is. Anyway I was aiming to get a place, they gave places up until the 500th from about 3000++ participants I think but unfortunately I didn't get any ): Haha never mind we had fun & I'll try again next year :P Here are some pictures of me and my girls

Love them all :)

Appreciative Post

Thank you God for giving me one more year to live and to cherish every moment I have. I will study hard & pray hard. I wanna be rich and help people and animals. I will open a clinic or an animal shelter of my own one day. I will have a happy family of my own one day. I know I can be hard to handle so I hope that you can give me a very good and patient husband in future :P I will not easily give up to live my life. I am blessed. I will always be grateful. I will try my best to be a good person. I will try to see more goods in people. I will try to forgive more and hate less. I will try to appreciate everything I have now rather than thinking of what other people have. I love being a doctor or a teacher, and I really appreciate that I'm in the path to become one right now. Last but not least, I will struggle really hard to focus on my study so that I'll become a really great vet.

Handling Stress

Hello,

What do you do when you're feeling blue? What do you do when you feel frustrated? Yes you can eat an ice-cream, you can eat a piece of chocolate cake, but then, why harm your body? Why don't you do something healthy instead? I'm not saying that I don't do something stupid like eating too much I ended up regretting it, but I've discovered many better ways to deal with a heartbreak:

1. It's okay to cry. Just cry your eyeballs out. It'll make you feel better afterward.

2. I sweat myself. I always go running or doing yoga. I think this is by far the best way bc not only it's healthy, you also can get an extra package of hot body :P when running, you should only focus on breathing or you could try crying while running. Good luck.

3. Don't be alone. It doesn't help at all. Maybe you could be alone for a while to cry or to put yourself back together, but after that, find a good friend. Even if you don't want to tell anything to her, just talk about something and laugh a lot. I have a lot of good friends here and they never disappoint me in making me laugh. Just don't be alone bc it is not good for your despair.

4. Play with your pet or any animals. Did you ever feel that they kinda get you when you're upset?

5. Do something that you've never tried before or try joining any club. Make yourself busy or if you're already busy then that's good. Because when you're busy, you'll get tired. When you're tired, you don't have to think about something before going to bed.

6. Block that particular person from any possible social networking that you have, Twitter, instagram, Facebook, and so on. Avoid meeting that person, avoid going to the places you know he'll be there. Not that you're being rude or anything, it just means that you're building a better you and you require a lot of time and space and also strength. How can you move on when you're still holding on to that person?

7. Be positive. Tbh, I am a very negative person but I'm really trying hard to change. The thought of creating this blog came right after I faced something unbearable in my life. Whenever I thought about doing something negative like stalking (yes stalking is actually really bad), cursing, or talking bad, I immediately started a draft about something that I think useful for anyone and something that I thought worth sharing. Yes it is hard but try harder. Just be positive. If someone was meant for you, he'll always be for you. It has been decided.

8. Try to forgive. Yes, easier said than done. But then you can only feel the beauty of it once you understand how a simple act of forgiving can give a really significant effect in your life. Yes it does. And sometimes you just realize you love a person so much you can never get mad at him forever, and you're able to let him go simply bc he's happy for what he has in his life now.

9. Never underestimate somebody just to put yourself above them. If you do this, you're actually downgrading yourself. I admit I did this sometimes, but then I realized that God can take whatever good I have now just in the blink of an eye. Just be grateful for what you have now & don't ever compare yourself with others.

10. Last but not least, pray to God in whatever circumstances you're in.

I'm hoping to learn more positive things from others as well. Till then. Good night! :D

New Member of the Family

One fine day, my little sister opened the back door of my mom's boutique. Suddenly, she heard a meow sound and it turned out a little cute kitten appeared out of nowhere. You know that feeling when your heart softens to the sound of a cat begging for love, you just can't resist the temptation to cuddle that poor little thing. So, my sister simply took him inside and we adopt him now yeay! Can't wait to go back home to see the newcomer :D and our spoiled Onyok must be in a great deal of jealousy right now :P

Enzymes

Good morning,

So I know that most of you must be familiar with the word enzyme. Today in biochemistry class, the lecturer related the enzyme mechanisms with an interesting topic, love (or so-called). Basically, an enzyme is a catalyst and it speeds up the rate of reaction.

In high school, we've been taught that the enzyme is highly specific. It does not change shape. It only binds to its specific active site. The teachers were so insistent when I doubted it because you know it's a protein, and I thought a lot of chemicals have been made to alter any other chemicals. Turns out that today we learned about another mechanism which is called 'induced-fit model'. Apparently, the enzyme can slightly alter its active site to fit the substrate so that they can bind. So, the enzyme is not really that specific. But that's not what I really wanna discuss. All of you must have heard about lock-and-key model.

Now, there are two types of model; lock-and-key model & induced-fit model. The obvious difference between these two are its enzyme has specific active site whereas for the other one, the enzyme has the ability to suit itself to occupy the need of the substrate so that it can bind. For easier understanding, the relation for the lock-and-key model is that the boy would only accept the girl that is really specified to his taste. If he wants skinny girl, skinny it is. If he only adores blondie, blondie it is. If he likes bald girl, well, even one strand on her head won't do. He needs all criteria to be fulfilled, not even a single defect. Contrary to the other model, he is a little tolerable. If he wants a pretty girl, he would still accept an ordinary girl. He still has a criteria to be picked, but then he accepts the girl just the way she is.

The question is, which model are you?

A Little Introduction

Greetings :)

My name is Bella and I'll be sharing as much experiences as I can on my journey of becoming a vet doctor. In short, it is not easy. Before all that, I just want to share a little info about me.

Well, I was borned in Johor. Ever since I was little, I've always wanted to be a doctor or teacher. I've applied though to further my study in both medic & the maktab perguruan. I didn't even get the medic interview but then I've got the call for an interview as a biology teacher. I went there but then I didn't get in & I was so sad. I mean, what did it actually take to be a teacher? I was passionate, I got an A for biology subject, and all the other interviewees weren't actually too excited to be a teacher. And I was thinking that either I'm not up to their standard to be a teacher or that I just don't fit into that profession. But then I just prayed to God for the best & let him decide the rest. Then I checked on the upu website & that was where the journey began. I got matriculation as well but then I was afraid that I might not be able to catch up on studies with the packed syllabus packed time and packed everything, so, my journey as a university student started when I enrolled into the Diploma of Animal Health and Production. I cried & I hated it so much because first, I have to go to Sarawak which is miles away from home. Second, my diploma takes 3 & a half years (glad that they changed it back to 3 years after all). Third, not one of my high school teachers encouraged us to study for diploma bc they said it is a waste of time. Forth, I accepted the offer simply because I didn't have any other choices (luckily I am an animal lover). Fifth, I'm being honest here, I thought that Sarawak is an under-developed state which later I'll tell you about how I fell in love with this place and its culture.

So, anybody who thinks that diploma is super easy is super wrong. First of all, in my uni, to be in dean list, you have to get at least 3.75 pointers. Forth sem was hell to me. We have loads of reports that had to be done every night, we need to rear chickens like literally reared them chickens from day one until they reached the weight that can be marketed, we need to observe the growth of the chicken and quail eggs from day one until they hatched, & many more that I'll be sharing on my next posts. The first sem was kinda tough too. I've never used a hoe before let alone doing batas and planting any crops. Planting was never my thing. Not that I'm spoiled or something but planting requires a lot of hard works. You need to water them, weed them, fertilize them, talk to them (this is serious though so that that'll grow faster & better), and before planting you also need to identify the suitable ground pH for a certain plant to be grown, and if the pH is not suitable you have to modify the medium. Not that being involved in veterinary sector is easy, but I love animals, all of them. So if you put passion together with hardwork, anything is possible.

I am just hoping that my blog will be one of your sources of positivity. I mean, good knowledge or experience ought to be shared. And one day, I might forget everything I did that allows me to stand on my position I'm standing right now, or in the future I might not be able to tell all the things I did when my grandchildren ask me, or maybe I'd just like to reminisce to appreciate what I had, so this blog will be one of my precious things to keep. And I'd also like to hear some opinions or experiences from others! Till then!